No matter how prepared I thought I was, I wasn't at all...

I knew from the beginning the chances was only 10-15%...

But I was secretly hoping we could be part of that 10-15%...

Unfortunately, it didn't work out and menses reported...

I'm heartbrokened.. Baby m didn't make it..

I want to tell myself to be strong and there are more chances.. One day, I will be like other mums, holding my precious in my arms..

But now, I just need to grief..

We'll talk about being strong another day..

This really sucks.....